See, the first few weeks it was all about African and Caribbean rhythms, percussion-heavy stuff that was designed for dancing to, where the singing is call-and-response and just grooves on the top. Everyone shut up and played. It was really meditative and it was doing wonders for my mood. Now everyone's babbling through all the songs and they're not playing tight because they're thinking too much about the lyrics or the next song. I'm getting really anxious because now all the extroverts are talking instead of drumming they're getting sidetracked and going into politics and risque topics that i just don't want to have debates about. I don't like that at the best of times - at work, at home, and certainly not when i'm supposed to be playing music to improve my mood. I just want to trance out, you know?
The other thing that pisses me off is when said staff member gets us playing stuff like Don't Worry Be Happy or Lean On Me and finishes the song all cheerfully saying that wow we shouldn't be depressed we should just be happy. You know, completely ignoring the people who are struggling with mania, anxiety and other issues. Not to mention when you actually are depressed having someone tell you to just cheer up is about the most irritating hollow bullshit you can hear. The drum instructor, on the other hand, talks about playing your own tune from your heart, getting all your pent-up frustration and passion out on the skins... stuff that works for everyone. Doesn't it? It feels like i'm the only person there who has a problem with the new direction the group has taken.
So yeah, tonight was balls.