I just don't know what to do any more. I get so distracted and caught up in things, and that's precisely what i was talking about this morning where i get so involved that i can't think about anything else and i start forgetting about dealing with issues, dealing with life, with normal stuff like eating, sleeping, going to a fucking rehearsal i've been looking forward to all week...
I mean, i already fucked it up once - earlier this week i booked a trip to Buffalo to renew my visa today. It was J who had to remind me i had something on tonight so i had to call hotels.com and reschedule for next week Friday instead. And now i missed it anyway! Fuck!
And you know, it wouldn't be so bad if all these things i got so caught up in i actually could fucking stick with long enough that i could show some kind of achievement at the end of it. But, you know, God forbid i ever finish anything, or even start something at this rate. Instead i'm filling my brain up with millions of random facts that i'll never use. I fucking want to throw my computer out the window, my skin is burning and i want to pull it off, graaar! Fuck!!!