amw (amw) wrote,

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what. the. hell.

It is extremely fucking scary to suddenly go blank on a number you have been typing in every week or so for over 10 years. This morning i forgot my client number for online banking and i just froze up in shock. I still haven't remembered it. This evening it took me a few tries to remember my client number for immigration. I am terrified i am losing my mind, somehow.

I wonder if it's caused by anxiety related to starting to get calls back about jobs. I don't have any interviews scheduled yet, but so far this month is looking a lot better than last month. Maybe by the time i do get called for an interview i will have gotten over that fear of picking up the phone that leaves me babbling so incoherently.
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