J has been getting up by 7 each morning because she is back to school this week. It's fucking horrible seeing your partner get up and be so productive when it's just not happening for you. I said to my therapist yesterday i think it has to be something psychological because i've already dropped my Zyprexa to about half what it was in hospital and it hasn't changed shit sleeping-wise. I wake up whenever my alarm goes off - nice and early - and then i think, oh but i just need to finish that dream because it was important, hold on, just give me a minute... Several hours later i come to, no wiser from my dreams and a lot more frustrated at my waking self. Have i somehow trained myself to not give a crap about the day any more? When did that happen?
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J has been getting up by 7 each morning because she is back to school this week. It's fucking horrible seeing your partner get up and be so productive when it's just not happening for you. I said to my therapist yesterday i think it has to be something psychological because i've already dropped my Zyprexa to about half what it was in hospital and it hasn't changed shit sleeping-wise. I wake up whenever my alarm goes off - nice and early - and then i think, oh but i just need to finish that dream because it was important, hold on, just give me a minute... Several hours later i come to, no wiser from my dreams and a lot more frustrated at my waking self. Have i somehow trained myself to not give a crap about the day any more? When did that happen?
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