It's not like i'm not sleeping enough - even if i do wake up for real at 8 that's 5 hours. I've made 3am my cutoff point for turning the light off. And i'm making a concerted effort to be in bed by 1ish, although often i do read for longer than that. It's almost as if the harder i try to get my evening schedule sorted out the worse it gets in the mornings.
I didn't do any work on Friday and i didn't catch up on it yesterday like i planned. I don't know if today will be any different considering it's already coming up to 2pm and i'm going to meet a friend this afternoon. I am too distracted. My mind won't focus. I need to work because i need the money to live, so when i can't do it i just feel like a crushing failure. That in itself isn't conducive to actually working. Instead i just want to curl up in a ball.