So last night my mom sent me a message suggesting i just hand in my notice on Monday and the hell with the last month's pay. R has been saying for months i should just do it. Even M joined the chorus last Sunday. You know, they might all be right. Even though i have to give two months notice at my apartment, so i'd be stuck paying rent for a month without a job, is that month really worth the pain? I don't know. I'm worried if all i do is sit at home for a month i'll lose track of what i want to do with my life. On the other hand, it'd give me the opportunity to focus on my music and really enjoy that last stretch of non-poverty before i go traveling. It's awfully tempting. This has been my most sober week since i got back from vacation and it has been the hardest; i was crying almost every night. I don't know how much longer i can go on.