amw (amw) wrote,

feeling ill

Pretty much every day for over a week now i have fallen asleep for a couple hours, then woken up and tossed and turned until sunrise. At which point i doze off just long enough to want to smash my phone into tiny pieces when the alarm goes off. Drinking has not worked, nor has remaining sober. I am beginning to look (and feel) like a meth addict, without the upside of, you know, actually getting high. There is a lot on my mind. Or not much, i guess, but i am restless and uneasy. On Friday morning i leave for a festival in Poland and will spend 4 days cut off from the world. I hope i can relax there better than here.

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