Breaking up with T is probably the most weird experience i've ever had to deal with (which is saying a lot coming from a trannie). I fucked up. I spent 6 months or a year or who knows how long coming to terms with the fact i wasn't going to be able to deal with a long-term relationship like we had. I spent all that time mourning inside, mourning and crying that it all seemed to be falling apart and there didn't seem to be anything i could do to make it better. But i fucked up because i wasn't honest with her, so when it all snapped overnight i'd been dealing with it for months and she was taken completely by surprise.
Now she's hurting, she's still hurting, and i'm moving on and it sucks that i can't do anything to make it better for her. It hurts me that i've lost my best friend, maybe forever. I feel like an ass for not saying something sooner, it probably wouldn't've changed anything for me but it would've been easier for her right now.
Ack. Yeah so can i say i'm smitten with someone else? *sigh*