amw (amw) wrote,
amw
amw
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life

Today is Thursday. Monday i will be flying back to Australia. I've been doing everything i can not to think about how much that's going to hurt me... thinking about finding a place to crash in Brisbane, emailing recruiters to help me find work, looking at T lying next to me and letting myself get consumed by her beauty... Just not thinking about that date, September 30, 1pm, San Francisco airport. I won't even be flying through LA this time so i can call her an hour after i leave - it's to Tokyo and then Brisbane. And look at me now, talking about other shit to avoid the issue... the fact it's going to break my heart. I don't even know how to think about this much less write about it. I'm going to miss her so much.

Last week i updated my webpage for the first time in ages. There's no real new content, just a new layout. I was planning to add a whole bunch more photos T has taken of me, but i don't know if i'll have time. Check back in a few days if you're curious, maybe i will've updated. For now you can go to http://chaosnet.org/~alison/ or the old SDF link might still work too. I don't know.

I hate this.
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