amw (amw) wrote,
amw
amw

  • Mood:
Some nights i dream about doing drugs and it fucks with my head because when i wake up from the dream the next morning it feels like i'm high. This morning i did and my mind was all over and i went back to read through a bunch of old emails and fucking... You just don't realize at the time how fucked up that shit makes you. Even just drinking. Like completely oblivious. I always looked at other people writing about their shit and thought well clearly they don't have their shit together the way i do, but with time you have that perspective and for fuck i have been a complete douche. I always knew i'd been a douche, but never really clicked that had anything to do with it. More than ever right now i want to keep to that no-drinking promise i made to myself last year. I am so over that stupid shit. I also decided i shouldn't be reading old emails right now because there's too much sadness too.
Tags: alcoholism, depression, looking back
Subscribe
  • Post a new comment

    Error

    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.
  • 0 comments